This may be my last post for awhile as I may have to let my internet go in the next couple of days. Things are going from bad to worse. Our savings are just about gone and it doesn't look like anything with the insurance company will be settled soon if ever. I barely make enough to make our mortgage payment so have no idea how we will live after the end of July. Utilities alone will be around $600/month never mind gas for my vehicle, and day to day living expenses.
It seems unfair but really it's probably not as I knew this was going to happen but tried to ignore it hoping for a miracle. Well we all know miracles only happen to those that don't really need them and the rest of us suffer in silence.
Last resort will be to put everything up for sale but real estate is just not moving right now. You have to practically give it away in order to sell it. Not sure how much longer I can keep my sanity. The worst part is trying to keep everything from family. My siblings would be happy to see me fail and I don't want the kids to know they have enough on their plates as it it.
I'd pray but I don't think anyone is listening. It's been three years now and there has been no change so why would I think that HE cares. Irony of it all is we can't even afford to go to church due to the cost of gas to drive there and no extra cash for tithing.
I'm just sitting here trying to decide if I should laugh or cry. Either way it won't change anything.