Sunday, February 20, 2011

Hello, hello, hello......

I think i hear an echo, can that really be me saying hello?  And just when you had all given up on me and decided that she's a phoney and never coming back, here I am, just like a bad penny.  I know I've been MIA but the hours at work have been long and arduous.  I've been doing 5 x 12 + 1 x 8 = 68 hours a week so I haven't had much energy for anything but work and sleep.  Don't even ask me about food right now as all sensiblity has gone right out the window.  Meal times are whenever I think I can take 5 minutes and find something and then I usually fall asleep before I get through it.

It's a long weekend here in Alberta and so far today is the only day that I am going to get off.  That means all cleaning and laundry must get done today because there is absolutely no way of knowing when the next day off will be.  Am I totally nuts?  Probably but I am one of those dedicated employees who will endure just about anything to ensure the job is completed.  Unfortunately, I don't know if there is ever going to be an end to the mountain of paperwork that comes in and goes out in this job.  The new system is up and running but not without some glitches which is to be expected with a transition.  I truly am hoping that tomorrow will be the last day of necessary overtime and then I can get back to working normal hours before this old body does a 180 and craters on me.  So far I've been hanging on and doing ok but I am sure it is only a matter of time before it says enough is enough.

Sometimes work is an outlet for me in dealing with stress,  Strange as it may sound when I am working life has a way of not getting to me.  We are still struggling with the insurance company over hubby's disability and have now had to send in another appeal in order to keep the file open until the end of May when he has an appointment with a Rheumatoidologist.  The meds they put him on were just making him sick and he gained 20 pounds in 2 weeks and was hardly eating anything.  So they took him off of the one and his weight has gone back down but he is still fighting being sick to his stomach and the pain has increased horribly.

My youngest son broke off his engagement and that has been hard on everyone.  She has a 13 year old daughter and an 8 year old son that run her life and he just couldn't stand by and watch it any longer.  He tried to talk to her and she just doesn't see the problem.  These kids are totally out of conrol and she wouldn't let him discipline them and when she did it was useless as they just whined until she let them have their own way.  He loves her with all his heart but is not willing to have these kids run his life or watch them ruin hers.  She will be moving out next weekend so he's coming here until she is gone.  My heart goes out to him and I had hoped she would be the one but I also understand where he is coming from.  I hate to say it but these kids are literally monsters and she will never be allowed to have a relationship with anyone because of them.  They have made her feel so guilty over the split with their Dad that she gives into their every little whim and I want.  It is really sad to see.

So that is it from my end of the world.  Missed last week's TOP's weigh in due to work and no weigh in this week because of the holiday so I have no numbers to report.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Yep, it's me .....

Last week was almost a total write off for me and this week hasn't been any better.  I did have a lose at weigh in on Monday night so am happy with that.  I was loser of the week so I got a lovely fruit basket to take home.

I was really sick for 2 days last week, I went to work one morning and within 45 minutes I was back at home dealing with the worst case of IBS that I have had in ages.  What  caused it probably stress, extra work, you name it.  I am still working 12 hour days but hopefully this will be the last week.  We go live on the 15th so hopefully the extra hours will not be needed.

I'm heading out the door here in a second but just wanted to pop in and update any of you that might be still with me.  Take care everyone and have a great day!!