Saturday, June 11, 2011

It's Been Awhile ....

And from the look of my stats I am the only one checking here anymore.  Oh well.  What happened to me you ask, I really don't know.  My life become out of control as did my eating.  Ballowed up to 292.6 pounds.  Yep, almost 300, yet I look in the mirror and I don't see that.  Does that happen to anyone else?  Have managed to get back down to 285.2 as of this morning so I am pleased with that.

Really disappointed in myself though as I've had a long time to get this weight off in time for my son's wedding and now I will have to find something to wear at tent and awning.  I have no one to blame but myself and I take full responsibility.  I still have almost 4 weeks till the big day so hoping I get at least another 15 off.  That would make me feel a little better.

Had my annual check up a couple of weeks ago.  Blood work and all was fine.  Cholestrol was normal, not sure how I pulled that off.  She did put me on Wellbutrin to see if it will help with the depression.  She said sometimes we just have to have little help and she thinks it is the best.  Only been on it for 2 weeks so no major improvement as of yet.  These things usually take about 6 weeks before they are at maximum power.

Still nothing on hubby.  More and more tests but no results.  His new doctor says we may never know what it is.  Wonder how the insurance company will like that one?  I can almost guess.  If you don't know what it is then you probably don't have it.  I'm so angry with them right now.  Actually I'm angry at everyone and everything right now.  My life is in total shambles and there is not a damn thing I can do about it.


  1. Hugs to you....I am sorry that things have been so tough. I hope that they get better soon....

  2. sorry that things haven't gone well for you lately. i understand exactly about the weight sneaking back up on you. been down that road more times than i want to admit.

  3. So nice to see you. I haven't popped in because you haven't had any new posts show up in my reader - I was so happy to see you yesterday! :)

    Sorry things have been rough for you - but nice job on losing some of the weight. That's great - you still got it Tessa!

    Take care - & come around more often - we miss you!